This week I've had several things weighing on my mind and it may get kind of rant-ish. I've noticed since Derek and I moved into our new place in August that I've been losing a crazy amount of hair. I'm talking clog my drains, decorate the bathroom floor, wadded up in my comb, pulls out in clumps...disgustingly amounts of hair falls out. I've been through this hair falling out phase before...in college...when I was stressed to the max in nursing school. Stress apparently = major hair fall out.
So what's causing my hair to fall out? Why am I so stressed? I mean-We are all moved in to our new place, I've been at my job for over 8 months now and completely have the swing of things, and wedding plans are coming along smoothly (is there such a thing as TOO smoothly?!). Things are going incredibly well. So I've been thinking...
Since I graduated nursing school three years ago I've worked on 4 different type of nursing units, in three different hospitals (in three different cities), and have moved to six different apartments/homes. Kind of crazy huh? I guess you could say changing it up is kind of my thing. I usually don't like to stay in one place for to long....I get the itch to change things up and try new things...and looking back at it (and forwards), I think its because I haven't quite found the right fit. Nursing adds a level of stress all its own, but knowing in the back of my mind that it isn't quite it for me, yet I don't know what is goes above and beyond the stress of nursing.
The unknown=stressful. So, I've been searching and searching. Looking high and looking low. Spending any free Derek-less, Rebecca-less time looking and contemplating things I'd be good at. Whatever it is that I decide to do next I'm sure it will involve more schooling (school=stress). And maybe that's why I'm losing my hair. Or maybe its the fear of going to school to be something/do something and I end up liking even less than what I'm doing now? AAAAAHHHH!!!! Decisions decisions....anyone reading this blog have any ideas for me? thoughts? comments? I mean-c'mon. Help a girl out before she loses all her hair!!
Speaking of school though---an Upworthy.com video that popped up on my newsfeed this week spotlighting the people who mold our minds into the educated people we are~>
Thank a Teacher
Thank a Teacher
Which teachers would you thank? Several teachers that come to mind. But the one that sits at the top of my list is my high school Chemistry/Physics teacher Mr. Dralle. It's not the chemistry or physics lessons that I remember the most from him though. It's the life lessons that he took the time to teach us. His most valuable life lesson? "The world doesn't owe you anything." Are you broke? Get a job. Even if that means flipping burgers or cleaning dishes in a kitchen. You are not above it nor better than the people who do those jobs for a living. You deserve what you earn. Its your responsibility to make your way through life. No one else's.
I'm thankful for that lesson and do my best to live by it. I'm also thankful for every single bit of help I've been blessed with along the way. Sometimes I catch myself taking things for granted and getting angry that I don't have something someone else has and have to remind myself of this lesson. It's pretty amusing working in the service industry and how many people you meet that don't understand that concept. So, thank you Mr. Dralle~ you'll probably never realize the impact you've had on my life and I hope you're still teaching this lesson to your students!
Well that was fun....but my blogging partner looks a little on the bored side so I best wrap it up for the day~
Peace and blessings :)
Love the song- Avicii is the best. And yes the unknown is stressful but losing that much hair is weird! You might want to look into that one- for real! Here's to hoping you can de stress!
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