Did you know that it's officially 2014 and I get married this year?! This is some serious shit and I am officially FREAKING OUT!! I'm not freaking out about the whole being married to Derek thing--more so the whole putting a wedding together thing. Getting everyone's addresses, figuring out where to draw the line on inviting coworkers (there are FAR to many to invite them all), trying to keep a budget (something I've never done), sending save the dates, picking out the perfect wedding invitations, how many chairs to order, figuring out the whole open bar thing, making my own centerpieces, blocking off hotel rooms, etc etc. Holy shitcicles it can be so very overwhelming!
One word of advice to the masses of people getting engaged and starting to plan a wedding: before you decide to plan a DIY wedding, make sure you have plenty of time to actually DIY, oh, and another thing....be A GOOD CRAFTER!! I mean, I'm not terrible at this crafting gig but I'm not great either and I want everything to look really good. I mean I should have known how time consuming and detail oriented a DIY wedding would be after playing MOH several years ago and having to help frost hundreds of sugar cookies in the shape of overly detailed cattle and cowboys for my friend's country wedding...I don't focus well. I was also criticized by the mothers that I had no attention to detail and I was sloppy. Who knew?!
I'm starting to get really anxious that things won't fall together the way I see it in my head. That the hundreds of burlap flowers I just spent the last 3 days making won't hold up to expectations and people will whisper and criticize the entire thing.....or we will have a bad turnout of guests, or we won't figure out how to serve the beer in the outdoor barn that the ceremony/reception is being held in. What if the DJ sucks? Or worse doesn't show up?! These are all things that start happening in my dreams nightmares recently.
I have a coworker that is getting married this July. She's a thin bikini wearing chica but recently has gone on a "wedding diet" and asked me a few weeks ago if I was on mine yet and after giving her an awkward blank stare she adds "you know nobody likes a fat bride" and walked away. Thanks friend. I'm VERY veerrrrrryyyy aware of my need to lose a considerable amount of weight before my wedding because if you're going to lose all that weight you've been talking about losing, what better time to do it than before the biggest/best day of your life amirite? So of course I have been having nightmares about being 300lbs in my wedding gown, oh! and my photographer is nowhere to be found and my bridesmaid has to step in and snap photos......pretty much anything and everything I worry about pertaining to the wedding manifests into a soooo very believably real dream when I shut my eyes at night. This makes sleeping and not worrying about wedding things EXTREMELY difficult and I still have 7 months to go!
Am I the only one with this problem? I know I can be an Anxious Annie but maybe this is normal? Who knows. Anyway, lets talk wedding progress-- Our Save the Dates are officially stamped and sent out the door, hopefully I'll be meeting with Amber to see what she's come up with for my gown design later this month, all the burlap flowers are made and just need to be made into bouquets yet, the bride bouquet is in progress as well as my mason jars painted with chalkboard paint. Don't believe me? I have photo proof:
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| I smile because no matter how terrible-it was my idea. |
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| I'm sure their is a better way to do this but I haven't figured it out yet. |
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| I think they look sweet-so I'm not mad about it. |
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| The Master Crafter helping with burlap flowers |
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| My mom helping put my brooch bouquet together |
At the end of the day I keep telling myself-this will be one AMAZING party and at the end of it all I'll be married to my best friend! So cheers to the many more panic attacks, temper tantrums, terrible dreams/sleepless nights, and the wine and wedding craft parties (and boy am I enjoying the wine!) :) 2014 is going to be a great year :)
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